and the sink, until the room’s getting stuffy with that clean hospital smell, and I wash it off and flush the toilet.
I undress, putting Veet cream on my crotch and waiting for 10 minutes so I can scrape away my pubic hair, I haven’t done this in 2 weeks and the hair grew a little longer then usual, it tickles as I feel it works, while I’m waiting I put the rug and table and stools back in place, it’s hot today and the floors dry out almost instantly, I take the chair of the bed and puts in place, I could probably re organize the closet or the small bed side table drawer but I’m pretty tired of the whole thing and so I take the cream off and shower, I shave my armpits and legs, I think about the guy I’m seeing and how I don’t really know him that well, and I try to think about what would make me feel more familiar with him, is it knowing more about his past? Knowing more about his family? Seeing the apartment he lives in? I can’t really say, maybe I do know what there is to know, maybe it’s more of an emotional connection that needs to grew, not information exchange, and I’m reminding myself that I decided to not obsess about this ether way and just let it be, just let thing have it’s natural pace and try to not freak out too much.
I let the warm water wash the shampoo out of my hair, and the antispatic soap that I still use to wash my piercing with and after I get out of the shower, drying myself with the hand towel cause I forgot to take the regular towel with me into the bathroom, I put some of the cream on the piercing seeing that I had a little discharge sticking on one of the rings before I hit the shower. I put on body lotion and hand cream stuff that I always forget to do, and I wear one of the new jeans and a new red top, and I feel clean.